( p.s. i blogged this yesterday but din publish it )

ALRIGHTY happy new year darlings. i welcomed this new yr with unrecovered sore eyes. i missed my first day of orientation cos i went to the doc. like my fifth time alr and aft depleting six bottles of eye drops. but i finally changed doctor(: and he's really cute you know.
me: can it be spread thru eye contact
doc.: no cannot, unless like my eye kiss your eye than maybe can lah

aft instructing me on how often to put eye drops,
doc: so girl, tell me how often u must put your eye drops
me: every hour
doc: and what must you do b4 you apply your eye drops
me: wash my hands
doc: and what you must do aft that
me: (dno watta say)
doc: WASH YOUR HANDS AGAIN!

doc: so right you must wash your hands twice every hour, apply eye drops once every hour, frm now, 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,11,12 until tmr so i will give you two days of MC okay. i want u to come back again tomorrow cos it's your eyes, later can go blind one. but tomorrow you will be fine, must trust me.
and skeptically, i asked him, are you sure in one day my eyes will be okay. and he said yes, trust me


i went home, applied the eye drops, and by 5pm aft soaking my eyes in eye drops, omg i was really astounded. not red anymore. like really.
omg lah seriously, my previous doc gave me such strong medicine that was so expensive and left a stinging prickling sensation yet it couldn heal my eyes even aft applying it for two weeks.

then i was talking to my mum, she said out of her three children i worry her the most. even though im the eldest. because every yr the fortune teller tells her something will happen to me but not her other two kids. last yr i will get cheated. this yr will meet alotta accidents and disasters. and also i every day come home so late, my life so active and i every few weeks will always fall down, and everyday slp so late. kinda true when i think of it. my poor mum, she everyday scolding me abt my eye cos she was damn worried i will go blind. to think i actually went out in the sun on mon to cycle.
i don't feel seventeen honestly speaking. and it makes me feel old. i will miss my IP days, my class, my teachers but i HAVE TO MOVE ON. i reached home and felt like i was living in self-denial, felt like calling up the same old friends, talking to them before i realised we are in different classes=/ i'm kinda scared and unsure of what lies ahead of me suddenly but, hmm IT'S OKAY. i will survive it. aft all i have a class with nice IPs to start.

to me, the new yr is just another day. i don't believe in making resolutions because if you are set to do something, you can do it anytime. however, i do feel that the new yr does give me an excuse to start anew, to widen and improve my stagnating social circle, to become more self-aware and of course become a more confident person. like what mr boy says, i needa develop my leadership potential so this yr i will prolly wna step up and do something im good at and i hope this can help me grow as a person.